..oh..another thing..
I fell of the stairs at my grandparent's house. On purpose.
Nothing happened..not even a slightest scratch. I'm just bruised a bit.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
First of - Lassie :]]]] Thank you. I hope you are ok, and that things are getting better. I'll catch up on your (and every other) blog soon. I miss your posts on PT :] xx
Appendix - Haha, I will ;D ..and thank you lovely, you made me smile :] xx
...a girl who used to go to my class came yesterday..
I just don't get it, why is everyone getting so excited over her?
lol..I'm not being negative, I just used to be friends with her for enough time to realize what she's like..she never betrayed me. I just dislike persons who think to high of themselves.
Anyways it's 11:08 pm now. I should sleep tonight, yearbook photographing is tomorrow. I'm scared...my face is oval, but in a weird way, cheeks are puffed...huge is a better word.
What if I get ugly on every single picture? Or fat?
....
I'll be both.
Anyways, I have dyed my hair today, finally. And cut a bit of it. Not it's a bit above my elbows. And it's pretty..haha, have I mentioned how I love my hair? It is shiny and straight, berry scented and long.
Actually, my hair is the only thing that is pretty on me.
After the hairdressers, I went to a cosmetics shop and bought a face powder and a box of those face wax things.
Later, I went to another shop that has all sorts of jewelry, and I bought two bracelets. They are both beaded (the beads are crystal/plastic made) and one is black while the other is whitish or something.
Ah, it's kinda late..I have to wake up tomorrow early, for school.
Then after school, I'm going to the dentist.
A friend will be waiting for me at her house, we are getting ready and of to the photo shoot.
Before all this, I have to study. So I will do that now.
I'm tired and feel like crap. I'll end up looking like crap on that picture too.
another note: I purge a lot lately. I have decided to stop purging for a while. I'll be fasting as of tomorrow, until the 21st of May.
Appendix - Haha, I will ;D ..and thank you lovely, you made me smile :] xx
...a girl who used to go to my class came yesterday..
I just don't get it, why is everyone getting so excited over her?
lol..I'm not being negative, I just used to be friends with her for enough time to realize what she's like..she never betrayed me. I just dislike persons who think to high of themselves.
Anyways it's 11:08 pm now. I should sleep tonight, yearbook photographing is tomorrow. I'm scared...my face is oval, but in a weird way, cheeks are puffed...huge is a better word.
What if I get ugly on every single picture? Or fat?
....
I'll be both.
Anyways, I have dyed my hair today, finally. And cut a bit of it. Not it's a bit above my elbows. And it's pretty..haha, have I mentioned how I love my hair? It is shiny and straight, berry scented and long.
Actually, my hair is the only thing that is pretty on me.
After the hairdressers, I went to a cosmetics shop and bought a face powder and a box of those face wax things.
Later, I went to another shop that has all sorts of jewelry, and I bought two bracelets. They are both beaded (the beads are crystal/plastic made) and one is black while the other is whitish or something.
Ah, it's kinda late..I have to wake up tomorrow early, for school.
Then after school, I'm going to the dentist.
A friend will be waiting for me at her house, we are getting ready and of to the photo shoot.
Before all this, I have to study. So I will do that now.
I'm tired and feel like crap. I'll end up looking like crap on that picture too.
another note: I purge a lot lately. I have decided to stop purging for a while. I'll be fasting as of tomorrow, until the 21st of May.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
..hkakjgdh;kg;shl'...I'm a bit angry now.
It annoys me when I say something and no one gets me seriously. Why do you ask then? Especially when I'm telling the truth..no, not the truth, the facts
Ah, this is what I hate about myself..I'm a bad tempered person, and get annoyed very fast..but even faster I forget about it. :]
It's 9:34 pm now, and I have been reading about Nietzsche all day. And finished the essay I had for native.
I still have to do my English and philosophy..
I wasted my day, which means it will be an all-nighter..and I go to school at 7:30 am..oopsie :]
It annoys me when I say something and no one gets me seriously. Why do you ask then? Especially when I'm telling the truth..no, not the truth, the facts
Ah, this is what I hate about myself..I'm a bad tempered person, and get annoyed very fast..but even faster I forget about it. :]
It's 9:34 pm now, and I have been reading about Nietzsche all day. And finished the essay I had for native.
I still have to do my English and philosophy..
I wasted my day, which means it will be an all-nighter..and I go to school at 7:30 am..oopsie :]
5:57 pm- I'm sitting on my bed, drinking hot turkish coffee with wee bit of cinnamon.
My hair is wet..I just washed it, and I'm enjoying the scent of it - acai and blue berries.
As usual, I haven't posted in few days. I couldn't, my studies are just piling up and I sleep less and less every day. But I have to work..hard. If I don't, I can say "Goodbye" to my future life.
...and I'm not that kind of a person. I want to have a future, a career, and maybe someday I change my mind and decide to have a family.
(*..end of rambling* - I think spring mood is finally hitting me in the head)
Anyways, my days were fine. My grades are getting up and I have to fix them as soon as possible...we have left only 33 days until graduation. And then, the real panic and stress start.
Oh, and proooom. Everybody is talking about dresses and pictures and music and bla blaa...people, it's only one night.
So, I've got an A in native yesterday and in constitution and civil rights today. I'll probably get one form sociology too, even though I studied a lot.
Haha, the irony is, that I was the only one who didn't cheated (which is quite unusual, since when I don't know something, I always cheat, with my special techniques)
I don't want to brag, but sociology is a subject in which I rock. So, I didn't study anything, but still wrote my exam, and I think it's good.
Plus, there is 19 of us in the class..on the exam, there was only 9 of us..the rest skipped.
I happy you know? ..oh, and it has to do with school again. Haha my life is based on school.
So, we did Schopenhauer last philosophy lesson, and Nietzsche is next. :]
I can't wait..I will do a bit of research on his biography, and will talk about him and his book tomorrow. I don't care..if this is the way of getting an A, then I'll do it like this.
It's something I like, something I know, so I don't care if somebody will think I'm bragging around and trying to be smarter (..though I am a lot more smarter then more then a half of my class)
I will try to make a mermaid hair now.
And I'm stressed out a bit, I have to find something nice to wear for our tableau pictures..ugh :/
On the negative side - I have purged a lot in these past few days. At least 5 times a day.
I'll be fine, right? :]
My hair is wet..I just washed it, and I'm enjoying the scent of it - acai and blue berries.
As usual, I haven't posted in few days. I couldn't, my studies are just piling up and I sleep less and less every day. But I have to work..hard. If I don't, I can say "Goodbye" to my future life.
...and I'm not that kind of a person. I want to have a future, a career, and maybe someday I change my mind and decide to have a family.
(*..end of rambling* - I think spring mood is finally hitting me in the head)
Anyways, my days were fine. My grades are getting up and I have to fix them as soon as possible...we have left only 33 days until graduation. And then, the real panic and stress start.
Oh, and proooom. Everybody is talking about dresses and pictures and music and bla blaa...people, it's only one night.
So, I've got an A in native yesterday and in constitution and civil rights today. I'll probably get one form sociology too, even though I studied a lot.
Haha, the irony is, that I was the only one who didn't cheated (which is quite unusual, since when I don't know something, I always cheat, with my special techniques)
I don't want to brag, but sociology is a subject in which I rock. So, I didn't study anything, but still wrote my exam, and I think it's good.
Plus, there is 19 of us in the class..on the exam, there was only 9 of us..the rest skipped.
I happy you know? ..oh, and it has to do with school again. Haha my life is based on school.
So, we did Schopenhauer last philosophy lesson, and Nietzsche is next. :]
I can't wait..I will do a bit of research on his biography, and will talk about him and his book tomorrow. I don't care..if this is the way of getting an A, then I'll do it like this.
It's something I like, something I know, so I don't care if somebody will think I'm bragging around and trying to be smarter (..though I am a lot more smarter then more then a half of my class)
I will try to make a mermaid hair now.
And I'm stressed out a bit, I have to find something nice to wear for our tableau pictures..ugh :/
On the negative side - I have purged a lot in these past few days. At least 5 times a day.
I'll be fine, right? :]
Thursday, March 24, 2011
20:25 pm .
I got home from school maybe hour or two ago. It was a shitty day, lol.
At 8:30 am I had to go to my dentist, which means my other wisdom tooth is fixed. Wiiii :] And surprisingly, my teeth are healthy. He (dentist) said that they are pretty much white and healthy, but I have to come again next week, so he could take of the little dental tartar I have.
But, that's great, since on the same day I have my yearbook photo-shoot. Naah, at least I'll have pretty teeth on that picture.
10:23 (or something) am - maths tutor class. I had to go and try to learn something, since today I had a written task and had no clue about it. I finished around 13:00 pm, and still had no knowledge about it. So I copied the task..I'm hoping to get a C, which would be perfect :]
School - I had a fight with a girl from my class. Oh, she gets on my nerves (not actually, she just pissed me off today, we're cool..).
Anyways, every year, seniors (graduates..however we're called) on the last day of the school year have a celebration.
My school is known for having the best "last day graduates" parties. Gypsy trumpeters come and play in the school yard. After that graduates and trumpeters walk the busiest streets and the city center, and it ends with the traditional graduates fountain bathing. All of them have special t-shirts with quotes or something that represents their class.
So, we were discussing what color should our shirts be, and some of us said blue, black or purple, while others (including her) said red. Which would be ugly, and I said that. Everybody hates red, even she, but hey, the point is to be noticed. Well, I don't want to be noticed.
So we had a discussion and I ended up yelling at her...oopsie :] I said that there is no point of asking others which color they prefer when in the end, it'll end up like she wants. And then the sociology teacher came and asked why are we all fighting, and the ignorant said: "It was just a discussion and she (pointing at me) got hysterical"
I got pissed even more so I yelled again that I'm not being hysterical, only rational, and that if she ever again mentions my name in a wrong context, I will slap her. ..lol
Hahaahm her face was hilarious. After, M and I laughed so much.
Oh yeah, M and I are good again. But I chose not to trust her anymore, or to talk with her as I used to. I got hurt once and forgave her. Now, I still forgive her..but I never forgot how she acted, so I chose to be smarter :]
I got a C in physics. Lol..that's great. I listened to music on the rest of my classes and thought I'll fell asleep.
It's 20:35 pm..I should exercise and then study..and finish my art work.
btw, I've got my blood test results..I'm fucked. lol.
I got home from school maybe hour or two ago. It was a shitty day, lol.
At 8:30 am I had to go to my dentist, which means my other wisdom tooth is fixed. Wiiii :] And surprisingly, my teeth are healthy. He (dentist) said that they are pretty much white and healthy, but I have to come again next week, so he could take of the little dental tartar I have.
But, that's great, since on the same day I have my yearbook photo-shoot. Naah, at least I'll have pretty teeth on that picture.
10:23 (or something) am - maths tutor class. I had to go and try to learn something, since today I had a written task and had no clue about it. I finished around 13:00 pm, and still had no knowledge about it. So I copied the task..I'm hoping to get a C, which would be perfect :]
School - I had a fight with a girl from my class. Oh, she gets on my nerves (not actually, she just pissed me off today, we're cool..).
Anyways, every year, seniors (graduates..however we're called) on the last day of the school year have a celebration.
My school is known for having the best "last day graduates" parties. Gypsy trumpeters come and play in the school yard. After that graduates and trumpeters walk the busiest streets and the city center, and it ends with the traditional graduates fountain bathing. All of them have special t-shirts with quotes or something that represents their class.
So, we were discussing what color should our shirts be, and some of us said blue, black or purple, while others (including her) said red. Which would be ugly, and I said that. Everybody hates red, even she, but hey, the point is to be noticed. Well, I don't want to be noticed.
So we had a discussion and I ended up yelling at her...oopsie :] I said that there is no point of asking others which color they prefer when in the end, it'll end up like she wants. And then the sociology teacher came and asked why are we all fighting, and the ignorant said: "It was just a discussion and she (pointing at me) got hysterical"
I got pissed even more so I yelled again that I'm not being hysterical, only rational, and that if she ever again mentions my name in a wrong context, I will slap her. ..lol
Hahaahm her face was hilarious. After, M and I laughed so much.
Oh yeah, M and I are good again. But I chose not to trust her anymore, or to talk with her as I used to. I got hurt once and forgave her. Now, I still forgive her..but I never forgot how she acted, so I chose to be smarter :]
I got a C in physics. Lol..that's great. I listened to music on the rest of my classes and thought I'll fell asleep.
It's 20:35 pm..I should exercise and then study..and finish my art work.
btw, I've got my blood test results..I'm fucked. lol.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
It's 1:35 am now, and I just finished purging.
I'm in pain. My heart is pounding fast, my migraines are getting worse and even that tiny bit of food that stays in, hurts. I can feel it move through my digestive tract.
rocks...that's how it feels. Small rocks that are making their way through. ...and I smell of vomit. -.-
Other then this, my life has turned into nothing more then studying.
wake up.
eat.
purge.
school.
binge.
purge.
sleep.
Only studying bothers me, other then that, everything is fine in school. I'm studying so much, and still manage to suck in school. Low concentration I guess, so I bought some concentration pills and drink coffee all the time.
I slept last night. After 4 days. Finally. And, I will tonight, after I finish writing this.
I feel a bit bad. There is no enough time to reply on all the comments on PT, or even to write here something (not that I have to write something special, but still).
Lily, if you're reading this, I will reply our fb message tomorrow, after school.
Oh, speaking of tomorrow, I have to go to the dentist in the morning. Ugh...fixing my other wisdom tooth. lol, many would be afraid of their dentist seeing rotten tooth from acid.
Haha, I'm more scared that he'll realize I'm a smoker. lol.
.......anyways, after that, I'm going to my maths tutor lesson. Oh god, another maths exam..I have to get a C or something higher, since I already have F..
..speaking of grades, I got an A on my philosophy oral exam..wahheey me! (after studying it for maximum 20 minutes..it was easy I guess).
FINALLY. after so many months, we are speaking again. I missed his smile and look and the way he touches his hair. lol, I sound like one of those horny "in love" 12 year olds..but I'm not.
I'm a very mature and intelligent adult who happens to be in love (..never been loved back though)
..I almost took c yesterday. Maybe I will again, someday soon. I miss the feeling. Or not..it's bad..I haven't had it for a year now..not that I had some sort of an addiction, I just stopped using it. ugh..idk.
I'm proud of Shannice too..6 days without binging, woohoo ;]
I'm in pain. My heart is pounding fast, my migraines are getting worse and even that tiny bit of food that stays in, hurts. I can feel it move through my digestive tract.
rocks...that's how it feels. Small rocks that are making their way through. ...and I smell of vomit. -.-
Other then this, my life has turned into nothing more then studying.
wake up.
eat.
purge.
school.
binge.
purge.
sleep.
Only studying bothers me, other then that, everything is fine in school. I'm studying so much, and still manage to suck in school. Low concentration I guess, so I bought some concentration pills and drink coffee all the time.
I slept last night. After 4 days. Finally. And, I will tonight, after I finish writing this.
I feel a bit bad. There is no enough time to reply on all the comments on PT, or even to write here something (not that I have to write something special, but still).
Lily, if you're reading this, I will reply our fb message tomorrow, after school.
Oh, speaking of tomorrow, I have to go to the dentist in the morning. Ugh...fixing my other wisdom tooth. lol, many would be afraid of their dentist seeing rotten tooth from acid.
Haha, I'm more scared that he'll realize I'm a smoker. lol.
.......anyways, after that, I'm going to my maths tutor lesson. Oh god, another maths exam..I have to get a C or something higher, since I already have F..
..speaking of grades, I got an A on my philosophy oral exam..wahheey me! (after studying it for maximum 20 minutes..it was easy I guess).
FINALLY. after so many months, we are speaking again. I missed his smile and look and the way he touches his hair. lol, I sound like one of those horny "in love" 12 year olds..but I'm not.
I'm a very mature and intelligent adult who happens to be in love (..never been loved back though)
..I almost took c yesterday. Maybe I will again, someday soon. I miss the feeling. Or not..it's bad..I haven't had it for a year now..not that I had some sort of an addiction, I just stopped using it. ugh..idk.
I'm proud of Shannice too..6 days without binging, woohoo ;]
Thursday, March 17, 2011
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