It's 1:35 am now, and I just finished purging.
I'm in pain. My heart is pounding fast, my migraines are getting worse and even that tiny bit of food that stays in, hurts. I can feel it move through my digestive tract.

rocks...that's how it feels. Small rocks that are making their way through. ...and I smell of vomit. -.-

Other then this, my life has turned into nothing more then studying.

wake up.
eat.
purge.
school.
binge.
purge.
sleep.

Only studying bothers me, other then that, everything is fine in school. I'm studying so much, and still manage to suck in school. Low concentration I guess, so I bought some concentration pills and drink coffee all the time.

I slept last night. After 4 days. Finally. And, I will tonight, after I finish writing this.
I feel a bit bad. There is no enough time to reply on all the comments on PT, or even to write here something (not that I have to write something special, but still).

Lily, if you're reading this, I will reply our fb message tomorrow, after school.

Oh, speaking of tomorrow, I have to go to the dentist in the morning. Ugh...fixing my other wisdom tooth. lol, many would be afraid of their dentist seeing rotten tooth from acid.
Haha, I'm more scared that he'll realize I'm a smoker. lol.
.......anyways, after that, I'm going to my maths tutor lesson. Oh god, another maths exam..I have to get a C or something higher, since I already have F..

..speaking of grades, I got an A on my philosophy oral exam..wahheey me! (after studying it for maximum 20 minutes..it was easy I guess).


FINALLY. after so many months, we are speaking again. I missed his smile and look and the way he touches his hair. lol, I sound like one of those horny "in love" 12 year olds..but I'm not.
I'm a very mature and intelligent adult who happens to be in love (..never been loved back though)


..I almost took c yesterday. Maybe I will again, someday soon. I miss the feeling. Or not..it's bad..I haven't had it for a year now..not that I had some sort of an addiction, I just stopped using it. ugh..idk.

I'm proud of Shannice too..6 days without binging, woohoo ;]