Changed the design..haha, I don't even like this pinkish-peach color. Whatever, this is not the point.
M didn't call me for two days now. I always have to fuck things up with my friends. And I love her so much. I still feel like it wasn't my fault.What's gonna happen tomorrow? But then again, she fucked up even more than I did.
Let me explain..we had a fight about some foolish little thing, and it was my fault (I'm still not admitting it). Later, I got depressed, I cried so much. It can be called a mini nervous breakdown. So, I sent her a text, saying how much I love her, how I apologize for everything, how I don't want her mad and how I feel ugly and fat and worthless. I told her that I'm sick of playing second fiddle with every single living thing on this planet. And all she said to me was: "I feel the same, and I love you. Now, leave me alone."
I ended up hating her and cutting after that text. But I miss her. She is my future roommate, we planned everything out. I guess that nowdays boyfriends come first. I get this strange vibe that she doesn't trust me anymore, and I can't see why. Like, we have been friends over 5 years, and I was always beside her, my friendship with her is probably the one thing I'm successful in...or was...dunno...
...and finally, I got my eyebrows done. I'm happy. Plus, my sister told me that I'm gonna get a scale from grandparents for Christmas..Earth calling grandparents, I have an ed...but still, I'm happy. Mine broke a month ago, but I'm getting a new, pretty one. It's black. I'm gonna put some pink stars on it. Hahah :D
...and I have 3 followers..haha, kinda pathetic, but I don't care.It's not that I'm not aware that I'm boring. Thank you for being my followers. Love you all. :]
It sucks that your friend cant see how much you love her, but I guess you just have to give her time
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm an anonymous follower, so I guess that makes your count to four? :P
I guess you are right. It's just that I can't wait any longer..haha, yes, that counts four..hahahm thanks for making me laugh ;] x
ReplyDeleteAt the end of the day if shes only making you self harm and feel bad about yourself, you need to focus more on yourself, until she realizes what shes missing- she should be the one to make the first move since you've already tried :) and you're welcome x
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, you really did make me feel better :] And, tomorrow is a new day, so we will see...I hope everything will be ok :]
ReplyDeleteYeah, I'm hoping for you too :) Good luck!
ReplyDeleteignore her hun , xxx
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