It has been 3 days since my last post.
So last night I went to a party. Ended up sleeping in a basement.I think I have never been more drunk in my life. There was so much food, different chocolate cakes, and junk food, and loads of other stuff that I cannot even remember. We played karaoke, and I sang. It has been a while since I felt that happy. I really did. I was surrounded with people I love. And then in midnight Mr. I'm too good for you and I kissed. "Women in love" was playing in that moment. I wish we hadn't kissed. My friend (ex friend since last night) kissed him later. And they hooked up. So I got depressed. And even more drunk. Then he had the nerve to yell at me for drinking, for cutting and smoking. So we ended up fighting so much and yelling at each other, because he does all those things to. I got really mad and said something about his ex girlfriend, and then he slapped me. The idiot slapped. And he turned away like nothing happened. He ended up drunk, while I was crying and eating and purging. When I finished my purging, he came up to me, and said - quote: " I know about you being anorexic. Of all the thing you do this is the most disgusting. Do not even try to talk to me ever again".
I drank more and more and more. A friend of mine was running naked down the neighborhood. And Mr. I'm too good for you slept with my friend. I don't know how I ended up sleeping in the basement.
Oh, and he called me today. I answered, and he said he was sorry. I ended the call. He called me 4 more time but I didn't answered it.

...There’s nothing left to try
There’s no place left to hide  

There’s no greater power
Than the power of goodbye...