So...I changed the design. It looks kinda happy, right? :p
And, don't know what to write. I'm numbed, and on my pills again. I'm sick. Tired. I can hardly move, because every bone and every single muscle hurts.
School is starting next week and I'm panicking. I didn't study for school at all, just for my exams, so I'm under a big pressure now, I haven't slept in 4 or 5 days..Actually I had a 45 minutes nap today. So I'm kinda better.
And then, there is this stupid fear that everyone will see how fat I am. I just cannot stop thinking about it.
Yesterday, we had a small reunion, just us girls from the class. It was ok, I don't regret going.
Oh, and I cannot even drink water anymore. I really thought that I can recover, and that after 7 years (well, 8 now), but I guess not. I'm gonna die, and the irony in all this is that I don't even look thin. I look normal and healthy.
..aaand now I'm just rambling stupid things. And wtf? Every sentence starts with "I" . I guess I'll find more time for writing and being online soon.
I feel alone again. Nobody likes me. I guess I am annoying. I don't care.