You clearly are my friend. Future roommates.

Is it my fault that I hardly trust anyone? I'm just afraid that I'll get hurt over and over again.
I love talking to you, how we understand each other, laughing, gossiping, being mean and drunk. You are basically like my sister. But there is that feeling that I still can't trust you completely. I'm afraid...I have never had a friend like you, I have never had a friend so long as you.
What if one day you stab me in my back? ....idk. Stupid paranoia.

Today is good.
I cleaned the kitchen and the living room. Now I will tidy my room, and study then.
Have been on pt the entire morning. I wanted to leave this as an open post, but naah..